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Log start: 6:21pm December 26th, 2010

Desolate; the blizzardy winter nights are.
Taking a look outside the window, you can't see more than white fluffy composition of snowflakes, you which know are not all the same as it reflects the uniqueness of human civilization itself.
Desolation; trapped within by all of this... emptiness that looks alike, but not.

You have only yourself to turn to, but is that really safe? Is it really what you're looking for?

Is it what you have come to desire...?

Definately not!
Lul.

Despite all of this feeling of being trapped with nowhere to go, technology has made this world more bearable! Bwuahahaha.
But I do admit, i don't enjoy snow like i used to.
10 years back, i would of probably nagged my mom to help me find my waterproof pants and the heaviest coat with some scarves and then eject myself out into the snow with all of the children in the neighborhood making snowmen and snow angels.

Looking at it now, there is nothing to be seen outside.
I don't know if it's because all of us are grown up and there are no more children around in the neighborhood (because i suspect that is not the case).
It's because of technology.
Technology can enhance many aspects of our lives, but it seems that it also corrupts many.
I remember growing up, i would love to go outside for everything, now, i just sit in my room facing this screen of unlimited distractions.
Even now, the kids are just sitting at home chatting with each other online through webcams and whatnot, while i go outside with friends to enjoy what society has to offer.
Is this really what we wanted? Is this really going to be the outcome of human society?

I hope not.

But it is true even more so during these blizzardy days.

But, what can i do?

Let me tell you though, this feeling of not being able to go anywhere, by car or public transportation, bothers me. This feeling of being trapped by forces that i cannot control, it's sickening.
Even if i choose not to be outside, i would like to know that i have the ability to be outside.

Sure, you might say that i have the ability to do it.
But honestly. Rethink that.

16-20 something inches of snow overnight, it's certainly a slow building prison until the city decides to salt and shovel all of the snow from the major roads, maybe then i can consider public transportation.
But to people who prefer to drive, like myself, how is tommorow going to be better knowing that the very machine that gives me mobility is trapped under many feet of nature's worst nightmare?

Nevertheless, this is the only reason why i dislike snow.

Looking at it brings back so many memories. Ah... sigh.
Now all of these memories cannot be recreated by anyone else because it seems that the kids do not like to play outside now.

Maybe it's a good time to write my new years resolutions and set some goals for myself.

I just don't know what to do.

So confused.

I was walking around the house before looking for my phone and my mom asked me what i was looking for after awhile of running around and she pointed out that my phone was in my hand the whole time.

Seriously.

What is causing this -_-

HakoneDayDreamer, i have no idea if what i just wrote is at all comprehendable. Apologies.