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Phone post #2?

The title of this blog comes from the snowball effect where you take a snowball, roll it down a mountain and it will accumulate snow as it rolls, eventually it becomes this giant ball of doom.

I have a bad habit. A very bad habit that not only involves myself, but quite possibly other people around me. See, I don't conciously control this habit, or else I would stop it. Sometimes I notice it and it's easy to correct, but sometimes it's inevitable and that's when it gets baaaaaddd.

This bad habit revolves around my brain and my inability to tell people bad news. I never want to tell people bad news. Who would? it's just like a TV scenario where your boss is too wuss to fire someone straight up so you're charged with the task to be the news bringer. Honestly, that job SUCKS. Because then that person will associate being fired with you. Just as how if you tell someone bad news, they'll ultimately associate it with you. And you might be like "nahhh. ME?!?! I'd NEVER do that" well, suck it up, idiot. And now me calling you an idiot will not be a joke anymore and will be justified by what you will do for the rest of your life; associate that bad experience with me. I don't care how high your EQ/IQ is, there isn't anything you can do to control this effect. So by not being the bringer of bad news, I escape all of this BS that could of floated around me if I had been one.
But here is where the problem can go either really good, or really bad. What do I do if their habit actually effects me? Better yet, to bring in a real life situation, what do I do if this habit grows exponentially over time as this person does not realize it and keeps on doing it?
That's the real dilema. Now should I break the bubble around this person or should I keep all this negative energy contained and let them live life everyday with this bad habit that THEY are responsible for, but blame ME for certain things that are a result of this bad habit?
Of course, you must first consider if this is SO extreme that it is not something that you are capable of fitting into your own hands or if you just want to be a good friend, but get blamed for doing so.
This is where I've come to right now and I have no real solution for it. But let me tell you, the situation is soooooo bad that I'm about to break my "don't be a bringer of bad news" rule and just full on tell them. It's bad, and it will probably be too much to handle, and for me to be at this breaking point, I guarantee you that this doesn't only deal with myself, but with other parties as well. That's why it's so hard to come to a decision at the moment. I wouldn't care if it involved me alone, I can just use my in-head ignore button. But I can't do it for other people.

Hakonedaydreamer, so close to destroying everything. So very close.

Throwback.... fridays o_O

Log start: 1:43am April 3rd, 2010

When i was driving home before, i was in my usual speed demon mode. the most important tool for speedy driving is the radio, for me at least...
if a good fast beat song is on, it makes driving a lot easier, because you drive to the beat of the music and it just feels awesome.
but when my two "hit" music stations (z100, 92.3) all play shit, i usually have throw out a loud disappointing sigh, even when i'm driving by myself, LOL.

But today, my fallback station, 102.7 (lite fm) gave me a huge surprise.

i'm usually not surprised by the radio but this one gave me 2 surprises, back to back.
First, the song Beautiful Girl by Sean Kingston was playing midway when i switched to the station. but it wasn't the song that gave me the surprise, it was the radio edit version that they played that momentarily disturbed my driving rhythm.
usually, the song goes "they'll have you suicidal, suicidal, when they say it's over"
the radio version went "they'll have you IN DENIAL, IN DENIAL, when they say it's over."

Ok, maybe it might not sound shocking when i type it out right now... but when i was thinking about it in the car, it was MIND BLASTING... they replaced suicidal for IN DENIAL. it's not a cuss word, i don't even think it's a bad word. this is probably on par with me for the keri hilson song where they replaced NeYo's "i used to be commander in chief of my pimp ship flyin' high" to "i used to be commander in chief of my pimp **** flyin' high"
they block out SHIP but not PIMP? like how they replaced suicidal with in denial?
none of this might make sense right now, but i feel really sleepy at the moment.
i just don't get it. people are too sensitive sometimes, i get why there are people who oppose of the word, but this is insane >.>


(insert 20 min time span here)

seriously... so sleepy... getting distracted so easily at the moment

right, second surprise...
they were playing Destinys Child - "Say My Name"
LOL

for you people who are around the same age as i am. this ranks high up there with the "throwback songs i really don't mind, but i never expected it to pop on the radio" list.

it was a nice change from all the crap that's on the radio today *cough* lady gaga *cough*

HAKONEDAYDREAMER, LOUD NOISES! wow.. i can't believe this post took 1hr and 30mins... this post sucks... i don't know why i'm allowing myself to post this -_- SLEEPINESS > MY BLOGGING ABILITIES(whatever that means >.>)