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Phone post #2?

The title of this blog comes from the snowball effect where you take a snowball, roll it down a mountain and it will accumulate snow as it rolls, eventually it becomes this giant ball of doom.

I have a bad habit. A very bad habit that not only involves myself, but quite possibly other people around me. See, I don't conciously control this habit, or else I would stop it. Sometimes I notice it and it's easy to correct, but sometimes it's inevitable and that's when it gets baaaaaddd.

This bad habit revolves around my brain and my inability to tell people bad news. I never want to tell people bad news. Who would? it's just like a TV scenario where your boss is too wuss to fire someone straight up so you're charged with the task to be the news bringer. Honestly, that job SUCKS. Because then that person will associate being fired with you. Just as how if you tell someone bad news, they'll ultimately associate it with you. And you might be like "nahhh. ME?!?! I'd NEVER do that" well, suck it up, idiot. And now me calling you an idiot will not be a joke anymore and will be justified by what you will do for the rest of your life; associate that bad experience with me. I don't care how high your EQ/IQ is, there isn't anything you can do to control this effect. So by not being the bringer of bad news, I escape all of this BS that could of floated around me if I had been one.
But here is where the problem can go either really good, or really bad. What do I do if their habit actually effects me? Better yet, to bring in a real life situation, what do I do if this habit grows exponentially over time as this person does not realize it and keeps on doing it?
That's the real dilema. Now should I break the bubble around this person or should I keep all this negative energy contained and let them live life everyday with this bad habit that THEY are responsible for, but blame ME for certain things that are a result of this bad habit?
Of course, you must first consider if this is SO extreme that it is not something that you are capable of fitting into your own hands or if you just want to be a good friend, but get blamed for doing so.
This is where I've come to right now and I have no real solution for it. But let me tell you, the situation is soooooo bad that I'm about to break my "don't be a bringer of bad news" rule and just full on tell them. It's bad, and it will probably be too much to handle, and for me to be at this breaking point, I guarantee you that this doesn't only deal with myself, but with other parties as well. That's why it's so hard to come to a decision at the moment. I wouldn't care if it involved me alone, I can just use my in-head ignore button. But I can't do it for other people.

Hakonedaydreamer, so close to destroying everything. So very close.